Alive again..

In the mournin air he still smiled dat morbid smile..

N it was time again that fear....
Will it happen again dis time....

I cant take dis no more...
I want yew to stay tonight...
Be mine...
This time i wont let yew fly...
No...
Not dis time...
Yew are mine...

Just wen he stood n walked towards the door.....
I stumbled while i tried to him back....


I wont let yew...
Please dont go...
Stay back my love....
be mine.....

Yet again dat broken dead smile....

Off near i bared up my chest to a sharp scimitar....

Dug it deep till i felt alive....
Ripped my blood ridden heart n threw on in his feet...

Cudnt hold myself but let out a painful cry....

Once n for last he smiled..
Stepped on it...

N i watched him go away beyond my reach...
Into the meadows i let out once again a painful cry.........

N cried on the floor...
Torn...
I cried till I felt i was still alive.....

Darkened Sky..

Yew dug ur own grave n dragged meh down with yew...
Now that v are safe...
Underground..


There will be no more harm don to us...
In dis peaceful dark brown v lay in arms just....
Between the ticking of seconds..
Love gives birth to lust...
We are at home now..


Yew must show me your bitter luf...
Black to blue..
My eyes crave for ur warmth..
My souls bleedin and i am hurt...
Your hands kreep down my cold spine..
I feel glad am still alive...


Six feet below the earth..
Its cold and dark ground....
Its like drifting into a never ending sleep...


I await for the ecstasy to give in...
So dat i kan be peaceful n get rid of these haunting sounds..
I slit my wrists feedin yew my sins...
World starts spinin around....
Darker than the satans eyes....
The vision blurs....


I give up to struggle....
I no more strive....
Up above the wings of angel of death...
I am loosing myself into that indefinete darkened sky...

Some time back.. I saw these 'Rules'.. It was hillarious..

So i want to 'paste' dem here.. So dey can stay in d virtual world.. dan just in mah notebuk.. :)

THE FEMALE RULES:

1.The Female always makes THE RULES.

2.THE RULES are subject to change without notice.

3.No Male can possibly know all THE RULES.

4.If the Female suspects the Male knows all THE RULES, she must immediately change some of THE RULES.

5.The Female is never wrong.

6.If it appears the Female is wrong, it is because of a flagrant misunderstanding caused by something the Male did or said wrong.

7.If Rule #6 applies, the Male must apologize immediately for causing the misunderstanding.

8.The Female can change her mind at any time.

9.The Male must never change his mind without the express written consent of The Female.

10.The Female has every right to be angry or upset at any time.

11.The male must remain calm at all the times, unless the Female wants him to be angry or upset.

12.The Female must , under no circumstances, let the male know whether she wants him to be angry or upset.

13.The Male is expected to read the mind of the Female at all the times.

14.At all times what is important is what the Female meant, not what she said.

15.If the Male doesn’t abide by THE RULES, it is because he can’t take the heat, lack back bone and is a wimp.

16.If the Female has PMS, all THE RULES are null and void and the Male must cater to her every whim.

17.If the Male, at any time, believes he is right, he must refer to rule #5.

Black luf..

All was so rite like it was supozd to be....
Yew were my saviour...
And forever we were meant to be.....


I woke up that dark cloudy mornin...
Rubing my tired eyes...
Still smelling of cigarettes, spinin head..
To discover yer dirty lies.....


The note by my bed made my head heavier...
I felt sick and torn...
And on my pain ridden chest i sketched a bleedin line...

Days have pasd...
Sorrowful nytz seem to neverlast..
i still feel polarized...
Still Remember ur fake and assuring very venus like smiles...


I burn in this pain...
So much so that am Black..
Scorched...
Incinerated...
In my own prison i pry....

But nothing can bring me down nemore...
I am not falling for nemore dirty lies....
Only romance i know of is this pain...
N Only mirth i know of is this remorseful rhymes...


I know therez no more heaven for me...
I know there is no more faith..
possessed by very different beliefs..
There is so much more to me than wat it seems to be....


So dont even think to reseed....
I am colder than the blades of gothic jails...
In my head i am clear...
And i no longer trail down the wrong lanes....


Rustlin n lonely yes they are....
But its so quiet, real and mundane....

N no longer yew or neone else shalt judge me...
Because i am a rebel n forever i shalt live free....

Chose to love you in silence....

For in silence I find no rejection...


I chose to love you in your loneliness...
for in your loneliness no one owns you..

But me....